When I Was Death, Alexis Henderson
When I Was Death, Alexis Henderson
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When I Was Death

Author: Alexis Henderson

Narrator: Khaya Fraites

Unabridged: 7 hr 22 min

Format: Digital Audiobook Download

Published: 03/03/2026


Synopsis

A teenage girl must do Death’s bidding to uncover the secrets of her sister’s disappearance in this haunting young adult novel by the author of The Year of the Witching.

“A searing portrayal of girlhood, at once sparkling and violently dark.”—Goldy Moldavsky, New York Times bestselling author of The Mary Shelley Club

Roslyn isn’t herself anymore. It’s been a year since her sister, Adeline, died under mysterious circumstances, and Roslyn is still tormented by her absence. So when the elusive caravan of girls that Adeline spent her last summer with rolls back into town, Roslyn joins them to finally figure out what happened to her sister.

Strange, beautiful, and intriguing, the girls are closed off from the world. And as it turns out, they’re brought together by a force more sinister than Roslyn’s nightmares could’ve conjured up: Death himself.

Death has spared the girls from untimely endings, and to pay for their lives, the girls travel the country reaping souls on his behalf. Now Roslyn must decide if finding closure is worth the price of striking the same deal.

About The Author

Alexis Henderson is a speculative fiction writer with a penchant for dark fantasy, witchcraft, and cosmic horror. Her adult books include The Year of the Witching, House of Hunger, and An Academy for Liars. Growing up in one of America’s most haunted cities, Savannah, Georgia, instilled in her a life-long love of ghost stories. When she doesn’t have her nose buried in a book, you can find her painting or watching horror movies with her feline familiar. When I Was Death is her first novel for young adults.


Reviews

Goodreads review by Nilufer on December 13, 2025

This book — with its creative, stunning, artsy cover — immediately drew me in, and the story inside turns out to be something truly unique within Alexis Henderson’s body of work. It blends girl power, sisterhood, LGBTQ+ energy, grief, and friendship into a darkly atmospheric fantasy touched with mag......more

Goodreads review by Fernanda (ivyfer_isreading) on December 09, 2025

I love a good codependent obsessive girl friend group. I loved an academy for liars by the same author so when I saw this relatively short book I knew I needed to read it. The concept of teenage girls doing death's work is so cool and, as I imagined, it was a great book. We had a power outage last n......more

Goodreads review by AndaReadsTooMuch on February 08, 2026

Let me just start by saying I will read anything by Alexis Henderson after Academy for Liars. She is dark, twisty, weird, and I love it! I adore the way she deals with uncomfortable emotions and this YA novel is no different. This is a book for anyone who’s had grief written on their heart. Old or n......more

Goodreads review by Kaitie Reads on March 04, 2026

3.5⭐️ rounded-up. 💔 YA Speculative/Horror 👻 Bargain with Death 💔 Found Family 👻 Overcoming Grief 💔 Road Trip Alexis Henderson has an amazing ability to grab readers with her stories and not let go. This is the third book that I've read from her where it was easy to find myself completely immersed in h......more

Goodreads review by Laura on January 29, 2026

I did not expect to binge this in a single day and definitely not that I would shed a tear or two! When I Was Death is an ya speculative horror about a group of girls doing Death’s bidding. When they do, their own lives are spared. A year has passed since Roslyn’s sister, Adeline, was found dead in t......more


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Praise for When I Was Death
A Kobo Best of the Month


“Henderson’s YA debut is a gripping, horror-filled read that examines grief and the aftermath of loss. . . A hauntingly raw look at life, death, and grief.” —Kirkus Reviews

“This introspective speculative novel is an atmospheric and cathartic depiction of grief and its lasting impact.” —Booklist

A searing portrayal of girlhood, at once sparkling and violently dark. When I Was Death is thrilling and wholly original.” —Goldy Moldavsky, New York Times bestselling author of The Mary Shelley Club

“The emotional stakes are high . . . [A] reflective and intimate look into grief and death.” —School Library Journal