Not the Perfect Victim, Anna Kahill
Not the Perfect Victim, Anna Kahill
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Not the Perfect Victim
A Memoir of Surviving Sexual Violence, a Late Autism Diagnosis, and the Fight for Justice

Author: Anna Kahill

Narrator: Anna Kahill

Unabridged: 6 hr 10 min

Format: Digital Audiobook Download

Published: 04/24/2026


Synopsis

He stole my voice. This is what it took to get it back.Narrated by the author. Told in her own voice.First published in 2025.In 2006, one night changed everything.At nineteen, a violent trauma shattered Anna Kahill’s sense of safety and left her carrying the truth alone for more than a decade. Grief and motherhood shaped the years that followed, as the memories she had buried gradually resurfaced. A later diagnosis of autism and PTSD reframed what she had lived through — and why she had remained silent for so long.Not the Perfect Victim is an unflinching account of survival and of confronting a justice system where not every case makes it to court. With clarity and control, Anna exposes the expectations placed on traumatised and neurodivergent women — and the silence imposed on those who do not fit the “perfect victim” mould.Told with restraint yet unflinching honesty, this memoir gives voice to experiences rarely heard — stories without verdicts, headlines, or closure.As featured in The Irish News, The Belfast Telegraph, Books Ireland, Women Writers, Writing.ie, Armagh I, and The Newry Democrat.For readers of:Know My Name — Chanel MillerWhat My Bones Know — Stephanie FooThe Body Keeps the Score — Bessel van der KolkA memoir that refuses silence — and shows what it takes to reclaim your life.

Reviews

Goodreads review by Liz on August 04, 2025

I am grateful to have received an advanced reader copy of this memoir, and am leaving a review voluntarily. This was a wonderfully written, heartbreaking recounting of the rollercoaster people experience after traumatic events and how disappointing our supposed most valuable resources can be. I deep......more

Goodreads review by Louise on August 31, 2025

This story will resonate with too many people and I can well understand the many, many caveats prior to the start of the book proper. It is clear that the author wrote much of this for herself, which is perfectly understandable, as it does not include much of the context and detail which people look......more

Goodreads review by Annmaire on July 07, 2025

This book is an honest account of a horrific, lived experience, describes the true meaning of trauma, how it effects every day life… It brings hope to people who may have been effective, in similar ways I think every health care professional should read. Congratulations Anna, highly recommend this boo......more

Goodreads review by Shane on August 09, 2025

A story from the spectrum that confronts a notorious, tragic failure of the criminal justice system. The author’s own experience as an autistic woman and survivor of sexual assault show the challenges of navigating a legal system that tilts in favor of predators along with the added difficulties tha......more

Goodreads review by Louise on July 23, 2025

This is a memoir that will stay with me for a very long time. I don’t think I’ve read anything that deals with the lasting impact of rape which is as deeply moving as this. Anna is clearly a brave, highly intelligent young woman who refuses to be cowered by the UK legal system. She’s determined to f......more