I Cant Save You, Anthony ChinQuee
I Cant Save You, Anthony ChinQuee
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I Can't Save You
A Memoir

Author: Anthony Chin-Quee

Narrator: Anthony Chin-Quee

Unabridged: 11 hr 8 min

Format: Digital Audiobook Download

Publisher: Penguin Audio

Published: 04/04/2023


Synopsis

The raw and gripping memoir of a Black physician who confronts his past mistakes and relationships as he learns to find his own path forward

At first glance, Anthony Chin-Quee looks like a traditional success story: a smart, ambitious kid who grew up to become a board-certified otolaryngologist—an ear, nose, and throat surgeon. Yet the truth is more complicated.
 
As a self-described “not white, mostly Black, and questionably Asian man,” Chin-Quee knows that he doesn’t fit easily into any category. Growing up in a family with a background of depression, he struggled with relationships, feelings of inadequacy, and a fear of failure that made it difficult for him to forge lasting bonds with others.
 
To repair that, he began his own unflinching examination of what it means to be both a physician and a Black man today. What saved him and his sanity was not medicine but storytelling: by sharing stories from his life and career, Chin-Quee learned how powerful the truth can be in helping to forgive yourself and others as you chart a new way forward.

By turns harrowing and hilarious, honest and human, I Can’t Save You is the fascinating true story of how looking within can change you and your life for the better.

Contents

Prologue 1

ONE: Chin-Quee, M.D. 3

TWO: A-Side—Success* 42

THREE: B-Side—The Fall 80

FOUR: You 160

FIVE: Fear of Flying 176

SIX: Rainbow Connection 212

SEVEN: Y'ain't (k)no(w) 222

EIGHT: Fatherhood 285

NINE: Eulogy 334

Acknowledgments  353

About The Author

Anthony Chin-Quee, M.D., is a board-certified otolaryngologist with degrees from Harvard University and Emory University School of Medicine. An award-winning storyteller with The Moth, he has been on the writing staff of FOX’s The Resident and a medical adviser for ABC’s Grey’s Anatomy.


Reviews

I really wanted to love this , I really did. I always pick up medical memoirs to let me know I'm not alone in this and the ones I pick up generally work out . I was also intrigued by it being written by a black ENT doctor, never read from their side , so I was really hyped to get to know the insides......more

Goodreads review by Ipek

As a board certified ENT surgeon, Anthony Chin-Quee looks like a story of success. In his memoir he details his battle with depression, surviving residency and his experiences as a Black doctor. According to a 2017 study the rate of depression in adults in the US is 7.1%, while depending on the meas......more

I wouldn't say this is a book for everyone,but it was certainly a book written for me. I don't know what it was about this book but I have never felt more connected to a story in my life. So, this is what it means to be seen? I even took a long detour from studying from my own exams that I know I sh......more

Goodreads review by mer!

I want to start off saying that I picked up this book primarily in the interest of the medical field conversation that I was expecting in this memoir. I got a *lot* more than that. And honestly? It made it a better read being able for it to be a MEMOIR that was more wholistic and not just some discu......more

Goodreads review by Jordan

Being a doctor requires you to be a super human, and no one can actually be as perfect as we require doctors to be. It is unfair, and I feel deeply sympathetic to doctors, especially residents. I appreciated his honest and unflinching chronicles of his depression, self loathing, and self harming beh......more


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Praise for I Can't Save You:

“Bracing… [these] astute, no-holds-barred insights offer a window into the world of medical practitioners — and also celebrate the nuanced and diverse humanity of physicians.” —NPR

“[This] book is full of wild stories from his experiences in the medical world and complex depictions of racial bias and what that means for access and opportunity, as well as honest reckonings with the meanings of care, harm, and survival in a capitalist and white-supremacist society. It’s a gripping story that is also genuine and, at times, filled with humor and levity.” —Shondaland

“His story will resonate, particularly with readers who feel as though they don’t quite fit in and those dealing with a family history of mental illness.” —Booklist

“This is a gripping, extraordinary story of one doctor's quest to find meaning, intimacy, and self-worth amid his demons and our racist and inhumane health care system. This book was so affecting that there were parts of it I read aloud just to hear Dr. Chin-Quee’s words resonate. Above all, I Can't Save You is the account of one doctor’s quest to make sense of his past and to reclaim the joy, peace, and purpose that make life worth living. It’s a testament to the life-changing power of self-compassion.” —Lucy Kalanithi, MD, FACP, Associate Professor, Stanford School of Medicine

“In his soul-baring debut, Chin-Quee, an otolaryngologist who has consulted for the TV shows Grey’s Anatomy and The Resident, offers an intimate look at his transformation from a fearful child into a confident, competent physician in a demanding specialty… A candid, stirring chronicle of struggle and success.” —Kirkus Reviews

“Raw, honest, and powerful, I Can’t Save You gives us unrestricted access to Anthony Chin-Quee's mind as he confronts his demons of identity and race. With biting humor and brutal honesty, Chin-Quee explores the question every marginalized voice has whispered into the dark: What is the cost of achieving success in a world that was not built for us? This book is essential reading for anyone interested in how we tell our truths." —Kendra James, author of Admission

“This is a powerful, gripping book that I couldn't put down. It's the kind of book that will make you join the gym just to keep out of any hospital forever. But as important, it's an honest, sometimes tragically funny tale of a young Black doctor who crossed many rivers trying to get home. You'll never look at a doctor the same after reading this book, and you'll never want to walk past a Black doctor again without wanting to salute.” —James McBride, author of The Color of Water

“Anthony Chin-Quee offers a tremendous gift in the form of his bracingly recounted memories. This book is an intimate collection of insights: into the world of care, a care for himself, and a care for others." —Caleb Gayle, author of We Refuse to Forget